Barry "J.T." Rogers acted under the name "Johnny Rahm" in gay adult film. He committed suicide by hanging himself with a wire on the fence of the Atlanta Botanical Garden in Atlanta, Georgia, on November 7, 2004. He was just 39 years old.
Barry was German, Cherokee, Irish, and a couple other things he wasn't very sure about. He often called himself a "mutt." Whatever you call it, he ,was the most beautiful man I have ever seen in my entire life.
Barry knew he was gay from a very, very early age. He was cursed with an overwhelming sex drive, and an intense desire to know himself sexually. He did not experiment sexually until he was 16, and he had very little sex until he was 21. He dropped out of the ultra-fundamentalist, ultra-homphobic college he was attending in Virginia, and moved to Los Angeles. Barry was no fool: He knew what sort of body he had, and he knew that his immensely long, 8.5" cock would serve him exceptionally well. He was cast on the basis of his dark handsome looks, his lithe but hard body, and that huge dick. That Barry could also take a cock of any size up his ass, without prep or lube -- and make the most thrilling sounds while doing so -- was a skill that adult film directors only later realized he had.
His ultra-conservative "Christian" family rejected him for his homosexuality, and that tore him apart. Family was everything to Barry. Barry loved his parents and brother, even though they rejected him. Barry never lost his faith in his God, despite the un-Christian attitude of the family he loved. In this, he exhibited a more Christ-like attitude than they ever did.
Over the years, Barry became lonelier and lonelier. He did not date; he had a knife-sharp wit, a high I.Q., and didn't do drugs or abuse liquor. He was, pretty much, a homebody -- preferring movies, magazines, dining out, and spending time with someone else to parties, bars, parties, dance clubs, and parties like the other adult film stars he knew. Barry (like me) was an insatiable bottom, and a size queen. But the men who could satisfy him physically were either frightened by the intelligent, humor, and soul they saw, or too dumb to realize what it meant. To get what he needed, Barry barebacked and became a passive practitioner of BDSM. Only then did the men with the big cocks step off their ego-centric pedestals and fuck him.
Shortly before he died, Barry moved back to Atlanta. He still had faith that he could reconcile with his family, and tried several times. Being close to them, he believed, would make that reconciliation easier. Barry still did an occasional adult film (primarily piss-and-fisting videos for Dick Wadd, filmed at Atlanta's Fort Troff sex club), mostly to create income. He desperately needed income; 15 years as an adult film star doesn't translate well to a resume when you are trying to get a job. Then Barry learned he had HIV. He started to get sick, but being unemployed and lacking health insurance he could not afford any medication. His friends and roommate did what they could, but the Georgia agency in charge of Ryan White Act funds which could buy his meds for him kept delaying and delaying his application for assistance. He grew increasingly ill.
In despair, Barry Rogers hung himself. The beauty of the world was the last thing he saw.
I miss you Barry Rogers.( Johnny Rahm )
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Barry "J.T." Rogers acted under the name "Johnny Rahm" in gay adult film. He committed suicide by hanging himself with a wire on the fence of the Atlanta Botanical Garden in Atlanta, Georgia, on November 7, 2004. He was just 39 years old.
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